Without you…

Without you, I’ve lost myself, and I still  live in you.

The more I feel you, the more I own you.

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Without  you, I’m standing all alone,

With only darkness around me.

No sound, No light,

No arms to hold me through the cold night,

Only a never ending wait.

* * *

 Without you, I feel there is silence everywhere,

And a loud noise inside me.

Today I wanna  shout out loud,

But the world seems to have turned deaf.

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 Without you I’m all alone in the crowd,

Remembering you in every breath of mine.

It was a strange moment,

It was the rainbow phase of my life.

When you were around me, all the time,

And with me at every step of mine.

* * *

 Without you, whenever,

There is a gust of wind, or a gentle breeze,

Pass through my body,

I feel as if you have come back.

What a moment it was, when we were together always.

Now there is only distance and a long time.

* * *

 Without you I’m all alone,

My world seems to have stopped

between yesterday and tomorrow,

the past and the future,

and time does not want to move on.

* * *

 Without you, my days and nights  passes,

But it’s difficult to grow, alone with age

Cause my years doesn’t seem to pass.

* * *

 Without you, whenever I recall everything,

A darkness spreads in front of my eyes,

And life seems to have flown out of my body.

* * *

 Without you, I still speak to you,

Wishing the wind to carry my words,

To your ears, to your heart.

* * *

 If you are there, then ‘WE’ exist.

If ‘WE’ are there, there is everything.

Cause, without you, there is nothing.

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It is FOREVER… coz its LOVE…

The Proposal

He :  Hey Maddy you are more than a friend to me. I wanted to tell you from a long time that I’m in love with you.

After 24 hours of  fight between her heart and brain.

She :  Hey Monkey we have a long way to go. Think about your parents, your career. Why do you want to spoil your life with me, you can get a better girl. You know that relationships matters to me a lot, I really cannot take it if anybody ditches me. If its in our fate it will happen.

He :  I don’t want any other better girl, you tell me what you think about us.

She : Hey I really don’t understand my feelings right now. I need time.

He : No problem. You can take your time. I can wait for eternity but it will be better if you reply in this life time.

After her sleepless night

She : Hey Monkey ! I always wanted  a guy who would love me a lot and who would never ditch me. Somewhere I see that truth in your eyes. I think I love you too. Hope you will never let me down nor my trust .

The Love

She : You know what? I’m am very lucky to have you in my life. A person who has been my best friend, is my boy friend today and will be my husband. I really cannot ask anything more than this from life.

He : Hey Maddy I love you. No matter what happens you are always at the other end of the phone to sort things out in my life even if its three in the morning. I feel better after sharing my problems with you. So patiently you listen to my most silly conversations and even make me smile on my most difficult days. I’m more lucky to have a girl friend like you. You’ll never leave me right???

She : Idiot! Never!

He : Even if you want to, I won’t let you go coz I know you love me more than I love you. I really miss you sweetheart. I can never imagine life without you.

The Meetings…The Dates…The Partings…

He : Hey sweetheart wasup? I really can’t wait to see you tomorrow morning. I have already boarded the train , I’ll be there in few hours. Love you.

She : Missing you a lot monkey . Come soon.

The mornings:

He: Seems you dint sleep last night. Can make out from your eyes.

She smiles.

He : Hey sweetheart you look really beautiful today. I can’t believe you are here in my arms. I missed you so much.

She: I missed you too. I really love to listen your heartbeat and feel you taking deep breaths when you sit while holding me in your arms.

He : Hey Maddy why do take so much tension. I am always there beside you no matter what happens. Everything will be fine one day.

She : I know. Your one hug relieves me from all the worries I have in my life. I really forget  everything when I’m in your arms. I love you.

He : you fit so well in my arms (smiles).

The evenings:

He : Hey sweetheart are you crying?

She : No.

He: Idiot ! You can’t even lie. Come here. If you cry like this how can you expect me to go .

She : I love you and I’ll miss you a lot. Life is really difficult staying away from you. I don’t know how I should manage.

He : My Maddy is a strong girl. I want to take care of yourself  and very soon we’ll meet again. So cheer up!

He looks out from the window till the train leaves station.

She waits there looking at the train till it’s out of her sight.

A year later…

She : Hey I really can’t see you suffering. I am a mad girl who has hell lot of problems in her life. Please leave me.

He : What’s wrong with you Maddy? Why are you saying all this?

She : Nothing. Its just that I feel you deserve somebody better than me. I don’t think I’m able to do anything for you. What if this relationship doesn’t work out. Its better you leave me now, I won’t be able to take it if we break up later.

He : Maddy please have faith on our relationship. You love me right?

She : I do…

He : That’s more than enough. I really don’t care about anything else. I will make this relationship work. You don’t need to worry about anything coz I love this mad girl. I know she is a little naïve but I love her the way she is. Even if you want I’m not letting you go. Whenever you feel low just remember all the beautiful moments that we have spent together.

She : Hey Monkey are you crying?

He : You know Maddy I cannot live without you. Why do you think of  breaking up?

She : Idiot ! Don’t cry now. You know I can’t see you crying. Its just that I was too frustrated and you know that I can’t break up with you. If it has to happen you need to do it that’s why I say you leave me coz I can never leave you.

He : That’s not happening . I will let you go the day you find someone who loves you more than me. Hey Maddy answer me a question. What if you see me with another girl someday.

She : Frankly speaking I really can’t see you with any other girl and if you really love me you will never do that and don’t really know what will I do.

He : Slap me twice if it ever happens. Do you think it can ever happen?

She : No, not even in my wildest dreams. I trust you more than myself. I love you.

He : I love you too… a lot…

Four years later…

The breakup…

She : Hey are you sleeping? I wanted to talk to you?

He : I am very tired .

She : Please for few minutes.

He : what?

She : What’s wrong ? Why are you avoiding me? Is there a problem ?

He : I want to break up.

She : why?

He : its just not working out.

She (weeps) : hey please don’t do that. I really can’t take it.

He : I really don’t care. Do what you want.

She : Please  don’t make any hasty decisions. What happened all of a sudden? What is bothering you? Please tell me what is the problem? Is it work pressure whatever it is we’ll sort it out. Have some patience. I’m ready to do anything for you. Are you alright?

He : No its nothing of that sort. I just don’t love you anymore. Please don’t cry, try to understand and move on.

She : but I still love  you a lot even more than how much I loved you four years back. Please don’t leave me. What about the promises and everything that you told me , the moments we spent together. I really can’t live without you.

He : I don’t care whether you live or die.

She : Can you be with somebody else?

He : I am already seeing someone else.

She : Please don’t say that. You can’t do that to me. You know I can’t be with somebody else. Don’t do something what you’ll regret all your life. Please give our relationship one last chance.

He : I really don’t care . Please I don’t want you to contact me anymore.

She : I really don’t know what happened .I only know that I have loved you a lot and I still love you. I’ll wait for you even if I have to wait for my whole life.

He : What if  I never come back?

She : You’ll still find me waiting for you at the door. I love you.

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 Love can become more, love can become less,

But love cannot die, coz its love.

If  it was once, it will be forever.

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